GnR 1988

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For virtually my entire life, I've been envisioning how my life might have turned out differently had I made the "right" decisions. Now, when I think along these lines, I most commonly come to the conclusion "Yeah, but I wouldn't want to have to live through that again". It reminds me of something my grandmother once said. We were at the supermarket, and the total came to $19.44. My grandmother said to the cashier, an older woman, "I wish it was." The cashier smiled and said "Yes." Then my grandmother said "Ah, but I wouldn't want to have to go through all that again." Something about that conversation struck me as profound.

It leaves me to wonder. Am I satisfied and happy (and their is evidence to support this conclusion), or have I just grown too old to envision a different future?